self destruction..

I have just turned the page on a new chapter in my life.

After ten years…eleven this year I have finally found peace.

I have met safety, for the first time in many, many years. The fact that we need safety to heal is an understatement. At the first of the year 2026 I came face to face with the realization that I’ve been on the run since Sarah left. I embarked on a path of self destruction and nearly succeeded. At the end of the day I truly believe that I was running as fast as I could to get closer to her, at the same time I was running away from the pain. Not consciously. When it finally hit me, so much damage had been done. Some things can be repaired and others can improve, while I still wait for a few more miracles…I practice gratitude. I continue to heal and to trust this path, this new chapter and that all things really do work together for my good.